September 4, 2015
I suddenly feel very tired, said out of tired, cause I wanted to cry. Expectto live all day long. Numbness of the meals, the lessons, go to bed, all the“step by step“. Later in time, it seems that brains need not awake can“live“. On a computer screen, a beautiful Horn Elk standing on its head inthe grass looking far away, maybe it was in the direction of home, it mightwant to stray. I don’t want to think too much. A migraine attack my brain.I’m so tired, so tired.
I don’t know what should I do to make myself relax a little, I can’t come upwith anything.
I want to stay quiet, I don’t want to talk, I don’t want to think about.
I feel like my heart was trembling. I feel like I am walking in the dark. Idon’t hear anything, you don’t see. Breathing is difficult. I didn’t wantanything, I want to close your eyes, close your eyes, don’t see anything.
I told myself, you’re not alone · · · You are not alone · · · · · ·Don’t be afraid to brighter days. No darkness.
I look at myself in the mirror, some strange.
Those people say they are going to go, to leave, to graduate. They arenoisy, really.
Everything was so strange, does not belong to me, nothing to do with me.Perhaps never have a place where I belong.
No beginning, no end. Everything is the same.